Hurrah for Susan Boyle. Gives us aging boomers a hopeful and inspirational lift!!
I have been extremely busy, getting rooms painted, working for the Census, spring cleaning and sorting out anger issues. Wow.
I am at that stage where I am looking back and looking forward at the same time. Janus. January birthday, ruled by Saturn the planet of limitations and this is my 58th year, the year of Saturn return, timing, and finishing up loose ends of the growth I have undertaken.
I have another Capricorn male living in my house on a temporary basis. It is a bit much to have two men in the house, but an interesting spark to my karmic lessons.
I used to date this guy, and he did not treat me well. We managed to remain friends over the years and I had thought the resentment toward him was long gone.
I found myself angry a lot, yelling, throwing things about. My usual semi peaceful nature was roiled and boiling. I found I needed to forgive him for the past, even though I am still working on it, things have settled down. I talked to him, you seldom get a second chance to tell somehow how they mistreated you.
The last couple of years I have been dealing with some suppressed anger, childhood stuff and all, This has been evolving for a while. I am trying to face the shadow parts of myself and learn to accept and love them. It is not as easy as one would think. We bury these parts of ourselves for a reason, We learn how to cope when our childhood is threatened and we carry the pattern of hiding from anger (Or at least I did) because in the past, angry emotions were always painful.
Accepting anger as a healthy part of the range of emotions, and letting it point at something you need to work on, or showing some aspect of ourselves that has been hidden, for what ever reason it shows up...
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I stopped hiding anger in my thirties. Had to work on that one quite a bit. I hadn't been allowed to show/experience anger in my first marriage.