Update

 Just going along, almost forgot about this blog. I have run out of steam. Nothing aside from the mundane to say. I went out and bought a new dog two years ago. A mini dachshund  named Rocket Dog. cute but noisy..

I still have Kes, she is 12 and aging on out.. 

I will be 60 my next birthday and am thinking of what to do with the rest of my life...

I found out I have ADHD in addition to my other medical issues. It explains a lot, why I start something and do not finish, why I walk across a room and loose two things for everything I find.. It explains it but does not make it easier to live with..

I have made some strides but am still just hunkering down.

When you are young, you have enough energy to combat some of the losses. As you age, and with loss of hormones the ADHD takes a more prominent role in your life.

Just want to say:

"You can't 'just fix it!!'

Hope everyone has a wonderful Holiday season, what ever you choose to celebrate, Hanuka , Midwinter Blues fest, Christmas,

Winter Solstice, the returning of the light,,,

If you look at the underlying meaning, it is pretty universal. The darkest days of the year, in the Northern hemisphere, are drawing to a close, slowly, the sun starts coming up a little earlier. It takes a while but that is what is amazing about this time of year.. The Sun, The son, the light, is reborn...

Light a candle and send out wishes of peace on earth ,,, Send out strong messages of peace on earth.. vibrate Peace,  Be Peace... Be. Peace. 

Brightest Blessings..

Who is the woman who runs with the wolves? Who trusts her deep instincts? Who may shelter strays and see through the disguise that we wear? One who is coming home to the forest, to the deep roots that run through the dark soil, rich earth of dream and deep knowing?


The heat of summer sends me into a form of hibernation these days, I do not want to be outside at all until it cools off. It has rained a lot this year but we are going back into a three week drought and the air is heavy with pollution. Pollen makes way for dust, coal dust from the trains coming from West Virginia, heading for the coal powered Duke Energy plant in our area.
Farmers plow and the dust and dirt rise up into the air, everything seems coated and layered with particles. Cars drive and tires degrade, leaving tiny bits of latex and petrochemical by products in the mix.

Even my weeds which I leave standing in my flower patch are drying up if I do not water them. I let the milkweeds grow and watch the parade of insects as they feed and harbor in this patch of poisonous flowers. I have watched a colony of Tussock moths strip the leaves of one plant, starting with the bottom and heading toward the top of the 6 foot high plant, skeletonizing the leaves one by one as they climb. In addition to the bumble bees and occasional Monarch their are other types of insects that love the milkweed.
Ah, summer!!

I am fractured and frazzled as the year wears on. I hardly have time to fill in this space, much less use it as a communications tool. I need a geek to guide me through the maze of new additions, new ways of doing things..

Meditation has not gone well, because I am not doing it. I am stressed beyond my capacity to cope with it so am just retreating for awhile....
Peace out.